I'm not like them, but I can pretend.

I pray peace and clarity

and all those human needs

everyone want for a different me

but who else should I, could be

With everyone dealing 

and all my broken feelings.

this is what I need

Every drop every anchoring  strife

“I need some trouble, I’m getting bored with life”

You don’t know the trouble I can be.

Every lie and taunting scheme.

I’m not the girl for you.

I’m not the girl for me.

Let it go.

let it be.

I’m dangerous, and I mean to be.

There nothing left

and I’m not done, I wont stop, I’ll never rest.

The last thing I need is Angels by my side

Heaven doesn’t help when I don’t want to die

You were once my family when my life would be hell

Now you’re no where to be found

and there’s no story I can tell.

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He says I talk like I’m in love with you

But oh how could that be true?

He says he misses the girl I used to be

She’s shattered inside of me.

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I look at the pictures and how I smiled for you

“Not every one leaves .. No.. That isn’t true” he said

You were once my lifeline when my heart would soar

Now I’m nailing up my hands so that I wont call

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He says I say your name like I’m in love

No now how could that be true?

But I have no doubt inside of me

That she is shattered for you.

Some days you’re the only one I want to talk to.

Some days I’m tempted to pick up the phone

Some days I know that I’m just tired and thinking wrong.

Some nights like tonight I wont be dreaming

I can’t even listen to good advice

when I have such a beautiful vice

how many birds can you hit with one stone?

I’m not always accident prone.

I’m the love I destroy.

You had me smiling to myself

oh no

are you different enough to be brave?

to stand up and face the picture your clouds have made?

he said it might just be the smoke in his lungs

but I see clear

and there’s nothing in my sights but you

is that something enough?

Am I something that gets in the way?

you often shock me.

but not this way.

They say you only need human beings: greatest hits

because the rest of us are shit

so I just want to let you know I’m listening to your song

the one I always skip too

but please don’t take this wrong,

I know you don’t want anything to do with awkward me.

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But your taking up my time

cause you’re always on my mind

you’re the thought that makes the work day pass

but I’m never in your sights,

And I’ve never called you mine

That’s the scratch that I’m itching

am I really that diluted? 

Give me one more miracle cause it seems I lost all my friends

They wont keep in touch after promising me everything

And Now I know I was meant to be alone,

I’m a man made copy of a copy, just another drone

.

But I’m not what’s for sale,

So go on, come back another time.

When I get the lighting right

Not like I know you’re mine.

It’s not a bet I’ll take

I surely wont be your mistake.

There’s a price that I can’t pay.

I’m not the sale that’s on the line sweetie,

try again next time.

it’s hard to remember who loves you when you hate yourself so much

My heart bleeds green

I thought I knew everything

Eyes wide open

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